I noticed something funny in these past couple of months – “friends” disappear pretty quickly when you’re not on the same page every single day. “Friends” pretend they don’t know you if you’re not around much, and “friends” never ask are you alright. “Friends” become acquaintances whit whom you exchange empty sentences and promises to go out for coffee sometimes, but you never really do. “Friends” make you miserable and you tend to wonder what’s wrong with you. “Friends” don’t make you wear a dopy smile for no reason.

But on the other hand true friends try to keep that goofy smile on your face as long as possible, because your happiness makes them even happier. Friends understand your need to talk about your English literature classes and how your professor is brilliant and amassing, and how he read World War Z and how the books is on his top 10 favourite list and how he doesn’t think you’re strange because you’re reading that instead of Dostoyevsky. And your need to vent because your history teachers are all crazy and you have to write tons and tons of seminars and you get no instructions for that, even tough you should – but that’s a different story. And the greatest pleasure of life is the fact you get to hoist someone out of depression by acting like dr. House and saying: “You’re pathetic.” and knowing that the other side will not be offended but laugh until it hurts so bad that you have to stop, but you can’t because it’s funny.

In knowing that happiness is just a monthly phase that comes and goes, a phase that needs to be nurtured because there’s nothing more precious than your state of mind is something you must protect at all cost. And the people who get that and stand by your side and help you fight and overcome the endless piles of shit in your life are your very precious people. Keeping them in sync with happiness is no trouble at all, and if you’re not its all good because chocolate and coffee really do help.

Yeah, I’m happy and I’m rambling, and you know what? I really don’t care.

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Nessa

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